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Being a real doll for Master Lex has been very enjoyable and exciting, he has been helping me to discover how to be a good sexy real life dolly for him to play with.
Dolly time usually involves me staring into space till my eyes begin to blur so that the pattern on the ceiling begins to merge into a new pattern of its own, only aware of commands I am perfectly tranquil in my mind, just doing what I am asked and then waiting for my next order. Occasionally I am aware and for a second I recall consciously what I have just been commanded to do… “Take off your top”…. Errr No…. OBEY Take your top off and throw it on the floor… Nooo… I cant… “FREEZE” He moves my arms into the air and pulls off my top. All the time I am thinking… move, go on just move, you can do it, you know you can if you want to just move I manage to move my toe, my hip a little but then “BLANK” and then…. ‘I errr … What was I saying’ oh yeah did you want to watch a film?
My eyes are wide open and my arm is being moved I am aware that I am very horny but that is it, my eyes are then closed and then I am awake, I am laid on the couch topless, my legs spread with Master Lex laid on top of me. He explains that he just posed me and showed me how he tickled me and played with my nipples and as I giggled he explains how I just lay emotionless, frozen and blank as he plays with me. I often wonder how I manage to stay motionless, especially whist being tickled.
I noticed recently that Master Lex has managed on a few occasions to get me completely naked totally bypassing my critical conscious mind, without me realizing until I am told to. Now if you had told me that this was possible, as a therapist I would have laughed but as time has gone by my unconscious has become well routined in responding to Master Lex, to obeying his every command and the desire to obey has increased day by day and been reinforced over and over… but I am still able to resist if I really want to.. but then I have to accept my punishment which usually involves my ass being spanked till it is bright red and stinging…
The first time Master Lex spanked me was because I would not speak with a French accent… This is something that I am not very good at and try to avoid as often as possible… I was naked at the time and laid in bed, Master Lex asked me to repeat what he said… “say Oui Monsieur”… No…. “SAY Oui Monsieur”… NO!... “alright then”… ‘sorry I am being a bad girl aren’t I’… “Lie on your stomach… FREEZE … bad girls should get their butts slapped, do you think thats a fair punishment”. ‘Mmmmmm yeaaaah’ I said with an unsure, hesitant slowness that almost said ‘Do I?’ He explained that if I did not say the things that he asked me I would get slapped… each time he ordered…”say Oui Monseiur”… I laughed cheekily and said NO! He slapped my ass… it made me laugh even more and the pain started to turn to pleasure as I though about how he was making me want to say it because I could not stand the pain... I continued to disobey him and when it got too much I would have to submit and say it or say part of it., which usually still ended in a slap… I enjoyed my ass slapping for being a bad girl, I think I will have to be a bit less obedient now and then. I think I enjoyed it so much because it meant that Master Lex could be his usual masterful dominant self and I had to be my normal submissive self and let him give me my punishment for being a bad girl. But another thing which I thought of later was that I laughed all the way through and I have noticed that I seem to really enjoy all suggestions that involve laughing which I suppose is quite natural… or is it?…
After a great night out I arrived home and although I wanted to get a drink, I felt that I just had to flop onto the couch and really relax, and the thing that gets me feeling nice and relaxed is when I play with myself. I responded as if I had just come in on my own from the pub (a little tiddly) and was chilling watching TV, I knew that Lex was there so I did not strip off my jeans. I played happily enjoying myself getting nice and wet.
After a while Lex joined me on the couch and we watched a DVD together and he gave me a suggestion. “You will grow more and more aroused until 20 minutes time when you will finally orgasm”. I was getting hornier and hornier but I was noticing that my hand that was in my jeans felt uncomfortable like my rings were digging into my fingers. I continued to play and after 20 minutes I was on the brink ready to explode into a very intense orgasm, but that annoying pain in my hand was distracting me. 25 minutes later and Lex tells me that I can stop, I take my hand from my jeans to reveal a squished red ring imprinted hand, regardless of the pain which was rather insignificant in comparison to the pleasure, I had a fun time playing… hmmmm….
Lex gave me a suggestion that I would always make sure that I was comfortable and nothing was hurting me in future. Though I did wonder why I didn’t just adjust things myself and make myself comfy? …. Odd… Maybe I was just so concentrated on following my command?
I have not written much for a while now, mainly because I have been busy designing and planning my new website and partly because Lex is away at the moment. I just thought I would go over a few things that Lex has written about in the last few posts.
Remote-clitoris – when I close my hand into a loose fist, it becomes my pussy and feels all the same sensations that my hand feels.
Well it is suppose to feel all the sensations that my hand feels but there is a slight difference between what I actually feel and what I imagine I actually feel. What I mean is that there are times when I can feel the same sensations in my pussy and on my clit as if it is actually being played with at that moment. Then there are times that my pussy and body respond as if it is actually happening but I don’t feel the exact same feelings or sensations that I would feel if it was actually happening, but because it is responding as if it is happening I do feel very horny and do get very wet etc..
Lex decided to treat me to a little pleasure whilst we were in a restaurant. We were holding hands over the table and before I had even noticed what was happening I was getting really horny and my clitoris felt like it was being stroked and a moment later I realised that my hand was in that certain position and being stroked by Lex, I instantly opened my hand and scanned the room, checking if anyone had noticed my little secret, luckily no-one had. Lex then took my hand and said “Bound” which locked it into position; I could not escape his toying with me in public. I scanned the room again but this time I could not stop it so I had to look as natural as I could whilst being driven to boiling point, wow, it was difficult, luckily Lex stopped before I did my impression of Meg Ryan in ‘When Harry met Sally’.
Tongue piercing – When Lex kisses me and touches my piercing with his tongue it feel like he is licking my clit which makes me very horny and makes me want to kiss him deeper and more passionately. Lex is such an excellent kisser that his kisses alone make me horny but now that he’s added this little suggestion it sends me wild.
Remote tickling – This is where Lex tickles himself and I feel the tickling. I am naturally very ticklish, the type of person that laughs at the very though of being tickled. It’s a fun suggestion and again Lex tested this in public at the restaurant. He started with a little tickle here and there and that was okay because I could pretend that I was laughing at something he had said, but then he delved straight into a full blown monkey impression of tickling under his armpit and I was in fits of giggles helpless to control myself. After about a minute of so I finally thought … hmm it might stop if I don’t look, so I tried it and it did…phewwww! I am sure there were people wondering what was going on but I was hoping that they would just think that I was laughing at Lex’s monkey impressions.
My hypno nipple piercings – I notice a difference in my nipples when this suggestion is active, it is an increased sensitivity. I can’t remember too much about what it felt like to have pierced nipples because I took them out so long ago, perhaps that is why I don’t feel an intense sensation. The increased sensitivity is great though and is more than enough to make me really horny.
Reeling me in – this feels like Lex has grabbed me round the waist with something and is pulling me towards him. I had forgotten all about this suggestion after the first time he tried it and on another occasion he mentioned in conversation something about it, I wasn’t really listening and he did the action which I caught in the corner of my eye as I was about to walk past him, I was instantly drawn towards him like a magnet.
Obey/Tiger – This trigger is given before a command and it is makes me instantly obey exactly what I am commanded to do. This suggestion was given in a deep trance and has worked very well since it was given.
Normally playgirl's very clean, conscientious and houseproud. A few days ago I gave her the suggestion not to worry about cleaning her house, and told her that whenever she tried to think of cleaning, the thought "the maid will do it when she comes" would come to mind. (I don't know if I've mentioned that I have a slight thing for french maids... maybe I've mentioned it once or twice ;o)
At the time though, when I tried to get playgirl to adopt a French Maid persona, she came over coy shy and smiley, so I returned her to normal, and we spent the evening doing "other" enjoyable things instead...
That was 3 days ago. What I hadn't realised was that I'd not removed the "The Maid will do it" suggestion from playgirl's mind. When I went round yesterday I noticed that the place was looking less like my conscientious playgirl's pad, and more like the home of some mucky student. Used plates and cups scattered around. Hmmm.
I told her to Obey, to enter a deep trance, and say "Yes Sir" and playgirl did just as I'd told her to. (She's gotten much better at speaking while hypnotised - in the past it was all she could do to lift a finger, now she effortlessly slides into a deep state of hypnosis, where she can whisper her soft responses to me)
I asked her if she was able to think about cleaning... or if my suggestion that she'd feel like someone else was going to do it still held. She told me that she still wasn't able to think about cleaning whilst awake.
Whoops.
I remembered that HypnomasterD had told his partner e that she could carry out commands with her body, whilst her conscious mind was someplace else, (enjoying a relaxing soak in a jacuzzi) and I wondered if I'd be able to get playgirl carrying out maid duties if I were to do that...
I told her that on the count of 3, her conscious mind would find itself relaxing in a nice hot jacuzzi, surrounded by candles, enjoying the relaxing feel of the water against her skin, and the scent of the bath oils in the air. In the meantime her subconscious would be able to control her body, and behave as a maid.
I counted to 3.
She opened her eyes and gazed blankly at the ceiling.
"Stand up for me" she did so carefully.
"Where is your conscious mind?"
"In a warm jacuzzi" she said, smiling.
"and what are you?"
"I am a french maid" came the blank response.
"This place needs all the clutter clearing away maid, clean it up"
"Yes sir"
She spent the next 10 minutes cleaning up with amazing efficiency. When I gave her any commands or instructions, virtually the only words from her mouth were "Yes Sir"
"Do you enjoy cleaning?"
"Yes Sir"
"Does cleaning arouse you?"
"I don't know Sir"
"Obey: cleaning arouses you"
"Yes Sir"
"Does cleaning arouse you?"
"Mmmm Yes Sir"
The job was very quickly done, and I had playgirl pose in a corner for me for a couple of minutes while I had no tasks for her to do. She looked so sexy standing there frozen, her arms pointing down and outwards, hands bent at the wrists making her look dainty, that I couldn't help myself.
"Come over here and unbuckle my belt, maid"
"Yes Sir"
"Take out Captain Kirk and give him a kiss"
"Yes Sir"
[*Note, I don't actually call my penis Captain Kirk, I just didn't want to go writing anything too vulgar in the blog. A quick google for "Penis Euphemisms" brought up "Captain Kirk" and it's too good a name not to share ;o)]
I then had playgirl sit herself down beside me, and had her conscious mind wake feeling refreshed and alert after her time in the jacuzzi.
She looked round confused,
"Have you tidied?" she asked, curious.
"Hmmm nope." I said. "How was your jacuzzi"
"Mmmmm it was really nice, thank you" she said.
"Mmmm no, thank you" I replied.
A lovely way to end a really enjoyable evening in the pub.
As I stood there my legs trembling I could feel the warm sensations of hands running down my back and around to play with my breasts and my sensitive hypnotically pierced nipples, then down to my ass and the stinging sensations of a good spank, then the warm, sexy, luscious, arousal that builds from my clit inwards and upwards inside me and spreads throughout my body.... and all this from two simple words (Good Girl).... MMmmm Yummilicious!
I am so glad that Master Lex told me to lay back on the bed because I literally could not stand any longer. Every time he touched me I felt amazing. I looked into his eyes and he smiled a sexy smile that lit his eyes up and instantly spelled out delight. My hands were bound above my head and that made me feel really sexy, helpless and safe at the same time, knowing that my master has control.
He released my hands and relaxed me telling me that at the count of three I would orgasm... He began with a few 'good girl's' and then moved on to number one. After the second Good girl I was almost there and when he mentioned "One" I was almost going to come there and then. My breathing sped up and i could feel myself getting wet. I was totally focused on Master Lex his mouth moving, the words that were flowing out "Two" the sensations were overpowering and I just wanted to grab myself and thrust my hands in my pants or just do anything so I had to cross my legs because its the only thing I could think to do. My hips were rocking uncontrollably and i was ready.....
"Are you ready" [nod] okay "THREE!"....... mmm m ahhh [pant] mmmm ahhh mmmmmm.....
Again this was a strong one, so strong I bit the inside of my lip.
Luckily Master Lex helped me to wake up so that I could drive myself home safely, post orgasm.
Gosh he is just so sexy, just wanted to........ Unfortunately I have work tomorrow or I should say today.....
Originally playgirl's "Good Girl" trigger was this: When I call you a good girl, you'll feel shivers of submissive pleasure running down your spine, through your breasts, up the backs of your legs, round your butt, and into your pussy, almost making you cum in arousal.
And though it was pretty effective, I notice that now I've visited all those places mentioned in the trigger, it's *far* more effective.
We've both had our fair share of bestowing and receiving pleasure this weekend. Playgirl's very good at massage, and I did ask her to tell me a thing or two about it. Apparently I'm a natural though (not at all smug here ;o) and she had a great time lying relaxing on the bed while I smoothed and kneaded over her neck and back.
I also had slavegirl spread herself then lock in place while I pleasured her, (it had to be slavegirl... when I asked playgirl to spread her legs and gently open her pussy so I could see her clit, she came over rather shy and her legs snapped together like a mantrap!)
As well as that I've given her sensitive nipple studs, and spanked her butt when she was feeling bratty.
*Now* her Good Girl trigger also brings back memories of things we've done together, shivers down her spine as she remembers my massages, through her nipple studs, round her butt where I gave her a playful spanking one time, up the backs of her legs, and into her pussy which I had her spread for me to pleasure the other day.
Her exstatic shudders have gotten stronger still, she says that it's much more vivid now she's experienced what it's like for me to play with her in those areas, and she's begun to comment on how wet I make her (evidently her coyness and shyness are slipping away nicely)
Tonight we had a nice time down the pub with some friends. On getting back we couldn't resist a little hypnofun before playgirl had to go home. (Work in the morning, gah!) As I called her a Good Girl near the end of the night, her legs almost buckled in pleasure.... I drove the point home. I had her lie back with her arms above her head, feeling herself growing completely aroused, as I called her Good Girl again, I told her to feel herself losing control of her muscles, awash with pleasure, and that on the count of 3 she would orgasm for me. As I counted, her breathing quickened, deepened, her body shook.... and when I reached 3, she began to gasp silently as her body shook and jerked softly in orgasmic pleasure.
I think we're both very happy with how the night turned out.
In the couple of weeks that we've been blogging for, I've seen just how well ordered and obedient playgirl's thoughts can be. She can hallucinate, she can experience phantom sensations or numbness. She can forget completely who she is and just become a robot, doll or slavegirl... she tells me that she obeys completely... or at least, wants to... but I notice that she doesn't do *everything* I ask her to... there are still things playgirl won't do... and I'm talking about innocuous things here.
She'll happily get down on her knees, and pleasure me orally if I ask / tell / trigger her to. She'll do that the instant I ask / tell / trigger her to do so. (Assuming we're someplace private anyway) It is *very* nice knowing I can have her do that. Though I do feel a little bad not returning the favour for her, something I remedied this weekend just gone.
She *won't* speak with a french accent on command though. Which, as we *both* have a thing for French Maids seems bizarre!
Slight discrepancy? I think so! Playgirl wouldn't even repeat lines in french after I spoke them, not even with her "Obey" trigger! "Hehe, I'm a *bad* girl" she said at one point. Which made me wonder... what's the best way to treat a bad slavegirl? ;o)
"Lie on your stomach bad girl" I said playfully, she was nude at the time, we were in bed, and she did just as she was told. I froze her in place, but told her she could still speak and look around just fine. I then told her that I thought bad girls should get their butts slapped, and did she think that was a fair punishment. "Mmmmmm yeaaaah" was her response.
So I spent a few minutes telling playgirl what I'd like to hear her say, and how many slaps she could expect on her butt if she failed to do as she was told. "D'you understand?" I asked. "Mmmmm yes" she said. "Right then." said I. "Say 'Oui Monsieur' for me, like a good girl"
"Mmmmmmmm NO!" she giggled in response.
Hmmmmmm.
A couple of arseslaps later and she's making "mmmmmmm" noises but still not doing as she's told. I carried on, two slaps on each buttock.... then a caress with the tips of my fingers as I told her what I'd like from her... she started to obey... but quickly stopped herself.
Only when both buttocks had turned a light shade of pink, did she obey in the way I asked her to.
I gave her a couple of kisses (I'll leave *where* they were, to the imagination) and lay back down beside her, "Seems my playgirl's somewhat of a brat" I said. "Brat?" she exclaimed in mock shock, snuggling against me.
So there we have our first spanking experience together.
I think playgirl likes the idea of being hypnotically compelled to obey... but also that she'd like the added dimension of real physical punishment and reward... and if she finds pleasure in the punishment itself... then surely that makes it even more effective, right?
I'd welcome any views or opinions from people.
